bener - bener...

Amfun2....
duh Gusti Allah....
am so sorry,,im lil bit not trust too Your Fate,
actually,, im not want it,, i really wanna trust in Your Fate,,,
im a human too,, im i wrong if i feel like this???
(astaghfirullahal'adzim...)

i think i can pass all of trouble, but its really not hold in my predict,,,
actually am so tired,, i can smile to the other,, but i can't smile to my deeply heart
am so lonely,,, its really lonely-heart....

i realize that its not me,, iuts not good for me,,,, i wanna be the trully-of-me ,,, but ..
im afraid if they can't see the trully-of-me....
i am not as well as my* smile-face*...
i am not as strong as  my appear that seem every thing gonna be ok
i am not as well as me....
i just dont think,, why they cant see the trully-of-me
why they can't see that  i really hope other care like  them,,, T.T